Happy New Year!

 I'm definitely wanting and needing some changes this year. I've felt in the dumps for a while now, my motivation seems to be shite and I feel trapped in most aspects of my life - job, living situation, money, etc. I'm 27 and the world is supposed to be my oyster and instead I feel stuck in a freaking shell of what life is supposed to be!  Poo. The following is a list of general goals I have for the new year and beyond.

1. Get healthier/ lose weight - Also known as the annual resolution for myself and 85% of the population. I need to eat better and actually move my ass.  I'm considering investing in a food/fitness journal and calorie counter to start.  The exercise is especially difficult right now because I? am not an outdoorsy kinda gal to begin with and here in MN it is friggin' COLD and my room doesn't have the, well, room for me to do much. 

2. Read more (of the books I have) - I have shelves of books I have picked up over the years wanting to read that I still haven't gotten around to reading.  Even now I could name at least five titles I've been considering buying!  Note: this is one of the dangers of working in a books store; there is always something new and interesting.

3. Blog more - I've decided to make a 2nd blog strictly for my movie fixation and focus this one more on me.  I want to use this blog as it was originally intended; to get my thoughts and feelings out, be more open/vulnerable, think things out in writing instead of just in my crazy jumbled head so I can get others' thoughts and ideas on things and maybe even find some of the support I'm afraid to ask for.

4. Try a new wine every month - I don't know a whole bunch about wine other than I like it.  Every time I peruse the liquor store I see all sorts of wines that I'd like to try, either because I haven't tried that specific variety of wine before or the label/bottle looks cool and appealing (hey, I'm in graphic design, I notice and judge these things). In the end, I usually go with something I'm familiar with because I'm concerned I won't like it and will thus be wasting my money. Screw that, I'm trying new things this year!  AND I will blog about them! Mwa ha ha haa!  I have even started a list of wines I want to try in an app on my phone. :)

There we have it!  I may add more or adjust some things later, but I wanted to get this first blog of 2011 done and posted before the month (or my thoughts) got away from me.

The Bunny Conspiracy

Yeah yeah, I know, I haven't written in a while. I think this is related to my main issue with socializing/chatting with new people; besides being a bit self-conscious, I just don't think my life is that interesting. Also, I'm beginning to realize that (possibly because of this uninteresting stigma) I have kinda crap memory. I'm trying to break myself of this negative thought process though, so allow me to tell you about today's most recent development in my life: The Bunny Conspiracy.

I had spent most of my morning and early afternoon inside today. The weather wasn't the greatest and I had things to get done. As I fiddled around on the interweb I got an e-mail from Jenna aiming to confirm what everyone was bringing for our planned July 4th BBQ. After a couple relays with Jenna I realized that I would be closing the next few nights at work and then a 7-3:30 shift on Friday, so perhaps I ought to get a head start on the shopping for this event today.

I scooped up the CDs I needed to return to the library and headed out in Vinnie (my car). As I took a left turn out on to the main drag that would get me to the library I noticed a little bunny munching away near a patch of wooded area just off the road. I thought, 'Now Mr. Bunny stay there munching and away from the cars'. As I was finishing that thought, from the other side of the street, one of Mr. Bunny's friends started to hop out JUST as I was driving past! I immediately took my foot of the pedal and subsequently SCREAMED for fear I had hit him! Yes. You read that right. Screamed. Then, still moving slowly forward I desperately scanned my rear view mirror with eyes beginning to well-up with tears! Then I pulled forward enough to finally see him...perfectly fine. Sitting there just off the curb, with one paw in the air and an ear cocked slightly as if to say, "The Hell?!" To which I replied (and yes, I said this out loud) "Thank you for being a smart bunny!" Big sigh of relief.

Now, with the drama over I went on my merry way to the library...where there was ANOTHER bunny! This one didn't try to go out in front of me, but I'm pretty sure he was watching me. He wasn't there when I left the library though. I continued on to Sam's Club to check my blood pressure (slightly above normal on the systolic - gee I wonder why) and scoped out pricing for hot dogs and such. I then ventured to Target for a few small necessities and returned home. THERE WAS A BUNNY OUTSIDE MY BUILDING! They're watching me.

Rx - a health update

I had my annual check up yesterday. Weight is down- YAY! I am exactly 5'5". I took deep breaths, got felt up, the lubed up speculum, prodded and poked...and then I got to go to work after.

Anyhow, things checked out OK except for one thing; my blood pressure was around the edges of pre-/hypertension >:( Mom and dad have it I know, but dammit, I'm the healthiest person in this household and possibly in my family! So I have to keep track of it, go back in a couple months and she changed me to a different contraceptive that is a Progestin only pill. Last year when I went in I was on a tri-cyclical combo pill (each weeks pills had a different dose and then the placebo/"reminder"). Like that pill as I did, the problem was that there was no generic for them, so I asked to be switched to something cheaper. She switched me to a combo pill that has a constant dose throughout the three weeks. I'm really hoping it is the new pill and the recent stress I've been under that's causing this and not my getting genetically screwed. So we will see.

I also got my tetanus booster and got blood taken for diabetes testing (since my sister has it and was diagnosed around the age I am currently, I like to keep a watch for it). I'm one of the few people I know that is OK with needles. They rarely hurt, they don't freak me out and I even think it's kinda fun watching my blood spurt out into the little tube. However, day after, my arm does hurt from the shot...assballs.